Sara: I can't let you go if you've already left.

Damn it, it felt too right.

Looking back I see that I predicted this. I know it was too good to be true, not to be let down again. I've been through everything, now this is just adding onto my way of connecting with people. Just to make SURE I have been in every situation, so I can relate. But I don't relate, not really. My mind is always somewhere else, that's why people get the first impression of me that I don't like them. I can't get back down to earth. My heads to high in the clouds.

And they asked me;
'How do you live with yourself?'
And I told them simply,
'I don't'.

People look at me with sympathy. My good friend cried in thought of my situation. If feels like someone died, all over again. It's like a constant cylcle of I'm sorry's and hugs and sympathetic looks. Just like one year ago. I hate this; I'm fine, I can take care of myself.
It's what I've been doing my whole life...